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hello everyone im esther tsan . my first name should be spelt as ZHANG but back to those times when my ancestors didn't know any english , they have to find an outsider , not a chinese to give our first name in english . so TSAN was given in replacement of ZHANG . i have 9 siblings . no im not kidding . maybe my papa thought that having 10 kids will be fun . very true actually . because if i don't know something i can turn to my 9 siblings . not all will always be there to help but few of 'em will be good enough . i love my family and i do not choose to dislike them . because if i do , i have to dislike 9 of 'em . very tiring . nah , it was a joke . but seriously , i love them very much .

i recalled my grandmama when i was sleeping.thought it had be a good topic to blog about.my grandmama,Ng Lai Hong has the looks of a mixture.she loves us alot,but me as a child never loved her back.i still remember that she always cook my favourite vegetable soup.once it's ready,she'll shout "esther!lei yam tong lar." me, with a smile on my face runs to the kitchen and shared a bowl of soup with her.good times that i shall never ever forget.i admit that i've not been a good granddaughter.there's once when she asked me to on the lights.i ignored her and she hit me on the lap.i shouted "stupid!" at her.one day while i was watching a drama with funeral going on,i think to myself.why doesn't this happens in my family.yes!what a moronic idiot i was.when i was in standard 1, grandmama passed away.the day i'll shall never forget.i was still studying in SRI GARDEN back then.Vanessa came and brought me home.on the way to the car,Vanessa told me grandmama passed away.she was admitted into hospital earlier.i didn't get to see her for the very last time.i was emotionless.she asked me why aren't im crying.all i answered was "no tears,how to cry?" horrible!

we went into the car.in there i saw mom and Ernest sobbing uncontrollably.i can't control my feelings and took out my handkerchief from my Hello Kitty bag.put it over my face and started crying.we reached at Tung Shin hospital.there,i saw grandmama lying on the bed.her eyes never open since that day.in the funeral,we weren't allowed to laugh or smile.we broke the rules actually.im asking myself right now,if i hadn't say that on that day when i was watching tv,will grandmama still be alive?who knows?i now understand the meaning of regret.treasure the old ones when they are still around.don't regret only when they are gone.grandmama,all these years i have not been a filial granddaughter.but i'll promise you to be a filial daughter.and all i want to say is that i really really do love you =)

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